The intro entry provides an introduction to my state of mind and ‘development’ needs at day one of course. Basically any long term development and PDP is contingent on some very basic facts. Talk of artistic development is irrelevant if financial bankruptcy intervenes.
Thankfully I have gained a few teaching hours per week at Trent University which literally keeping some of the wolves from the door. I have also been given to understand that some teaching hours at New College Nottingham are in the pipeline but the chickens aren’t being counted yet.
It hard to explain how debilitating this kind of pressure is. I am 48 years old and have no means whatsoever..no pension, buy car, mind house, ampoule life insurance.. you name it I do not have it. I always approached the artistic life full on and seriously i.e. ‘all or nothing’ seems the nothing has won so far.
Having said that the intervening couple of weeks since start of the course have been interesting. It looks like the postgrad status of the course may have unlocked Higher Education level teaching…something I have always felt capable of but never given chance because of the ‘one level above the level taught’ rule. I am now a research supervisor one hour per week for Trent University Multimedia students ( 3rd year).
If I can keep these hours going ( no guarantees as education seems rife with false starts and misbegotten planning) I may be able to build up enough hours to survive and begin paying back my partner for the stress and strain of the course (literally) I chosen ( in all senses). If not Tescos shelf-stacking seems the likeliest route…if anything.
Finances :being broke the chances of me being able to purchase materials for painting remote so ‘conceptual’ may be only option hence the text works. Unsatisfactory but inevitable.